trust

Trust is both emotional and logical. Emotional because you're opening yourself up to someone while believing they won't take advantage of anything you're telling or showing them. Logical because you have to make the decision based on this person's personality of whether or not you can confide in them.

I've had major trust problems in the past and present still. I really need to work on them. These issues are still creating problems in my life and I just want out of it. There's way too much frustration, anger, and sadness coming from the problems i created. Which in turn does more damage because I get angry trying to fix things and end up further throwing life down the tube.

Blogs are about getting feelings out right? Well since I just created this blogaroni, I had, and probly will still have, lots of stuff to say. So don't judge me!!!

On the brighter side since I'm not a total depressed old man that sits at home and cries all day (that's only on tuesdays).....
I had a really chill day today. I hope everyone reading this did too. I'm really thankful for my friends and family for keeping me together over the years. I'm thankful for waking up every morning, even though I'm lazy and generally ignore every bit of my alarm clock's efforts to get me out of bed to wash my dirty mug. I'm just thankful for my life. Even if I don't always deserve what i have, and even when i get what i deserve for being undeserving. (hope that made sense)

That's it for this time.

Have an awesome night everyone.